Self Discovery

I’m so sorry

ImageI know words won’t suffice, nor will you ever see this but if you do, know that I am sorry my fellow stranger and early morning commuter for making you alight at a stage too early.

I know it’s just a 10 bob to your actual destination but I also know you may not have it or it could be saved for your return trip.

My excuse? I was extremely distracted and by the time I realized I set you off on the wrong stage you were long gone.

My sincere hopes are that you were meant to alight at that stage for a particular reason. I’m a great believer in fate/Destiny (Qadr). Everything that happens was meant to happen and nothing in the world could have changed it. I pray that it was a great fate that I sent you off wherever you are and are safe.


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Since I came to know you, I have never wanted to look back. You came into my life like a ray of sunshine. Definitely I was opinionated and I was full of these ideas that no way in this life could I be buddies with such a person like you. We were totally different people, far apart like day and night. Weird if I could ever imagine us in the same company at any given time.

You were loud, I was quiet.

You were outspoken, I was shy.

I perceived you as a radical and I was extremely conservative.

You were a free bird, I was geeky (I should say serious but u prefer the term geeky so be it :D)

So so many differences I couldn’t possibly list them all down. I couldn’t have been more wrong about you.

I couldn’t briefly describe you since I won’t do you justice.

But here is a sample overview:





THRIFTY (I have no idea what’s happening currently, get back to it :p)






Not to forget daring, adventurous, dynamic, strong willed, inquisitive (seriously never met anyone who asks as many questions as you do, except for my sis that is), open minded and reliable. Simply lovable.

You are an extension of the many sisters I already have ❤

I don’t really remember when we started talking, but suddenly you were in my life, and a constant part of my life. All those attributes of you I thought of in an unflattering light, I believe were just my way of downplaying you and still make my character be the best, desirable and me a star in my life. But I am happy you are co-starring in my life.I would not have it any other way.

Whenever something amazing happens I think… where’s my phone I call you ASAP! Same goes for sad and depressing moments. I know you are someone I can rely on and never get disappointed. I wish everyone would have you for a BFF, but again you know me, I am terribly selfish, jealous and would not want to share you with anyone as much as I want to be generous. Your presence in my life has built me to be a stronger character, you diluted my quietness and nowadays I am happy to shout out across the room and not care what people will think! I can now easily take teasing and laugh along but seriously wewe ni mchokozi sana!

Interrupting my naps. Classic you. I believe I wouldn’t expect anything less should you ever find me asleep. Doesn’t mean I wouldn’t protest and bitch about being sleep interrupted? It’s just a defense mechanism 😀 I miss the planned and random shopping sprees, plots and activities already. Class events planning was a fun process, at least the class shall remember us for that. The chit chats and notes passing in class, the various stalker modes and nicknames, your love for spaghetti?! Never understood why or maybe I’m just an awesome cook 😉

I am yet to learn how to speak my mind, so you better stick around in my life or you’re doomed wherever you’ll be! I know your path of finding yourself hasn’t been easy either, there will be up’s and down’s, all to build you and make you a stronger person eventually but know that for now, I am here for you and you can be yourself with me. Wake me up at night. If you have to; break down the door if I don’t wake up. Why the hell am I planting ideas in your head? Never mind. I know that’s how you’d think any way :p xoxo

I’d say we are complementary in our differences and united in our similarities.

Today I celebrate you.

Happy bday love

I wish you a happiest 22nd Birthday, all of life’s blessings, success, happiness, me to constantly nag you and always shine wherever you are and win thousands of hearts my dearest and the Lord to always guide you through your life.

NB: This piece has been a WIP for about a month now, I still wanted to share it.

In addition to it, in light of recent events we know life will always have its up’s and down’s. We will definitely get through them all though at that point in time you wonder how? just one step at a time. life has it all. the good the bad and the ugly. All are there to help us grow and appreciate life.

Some things may be out of our control, and the evils we’re unable to eradicate with actions then talking may be a solution; and sometimes talking doesn’t help yet just by seeing, knowing and feeling that what is happening is wrong is justice enough. It’s the most one could have done in that particular instance.

Keep the fire burning. love you always.

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Strengthening our Swahili communities: When words are no longer enough

I definitely share similar views with this great blogger.
unity and power in numbers. As we progress forward in development, I believe we shouldn’t forget our roots and where we come from.
It’s what defines us as individuals.
We ought to take control of our lives wherever we are and minimize the impact of outsiders taking over our community/lives, in a collective manner.

Chai Chat

I have noticed lately that there seems to be a rise in religious overzealousness without much practical applications to fundamental religious teachings of being a responsible citizen of the community.  While I have derived my observations specifically from my interactions with fellow Muslims from my East African community via social media sites, this trend seems to be more pronounced among social circles that identify themselves as fairly conservative and traditional.  Before I go any further, I would like to state that I am pro-democracy and free speech, and I believe that each person is entitled to living her/his personal philosophy as long as it doesn’t harm others.  The problem I have is that there are plenty of ‘proud to be Muslim/Islam is the best’ declarations without much practice to them.  The old adage “Talk is cheap” has not survived this long for no reason-people tend to say a lot without necessarily doing a lot.

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Smile :)

It actually livens you up. It is the best remedy for uplifting moods.

Feel down, just attempt looking at the humorous bit of it. It is definitely frustrating but not impossible.

There’s always a silver lining somewhere. If I had known earlier, I would be miles away in being a happy soul. Either way I am glad for the learning experience I am going through. I’d say I was always a moody person, the probability of finding me moody was 90-10% and that 10% was during my escapades into TV comedy shows and small sister moments. They were my major outlet. It’s not that I am a moody person, I just find myself moody for no apparent reason. I just couldn’t explain it. Funny thing, first encounters with people, I always pass off as this jovial happy person.  The moody me was experienced by people I am used to.

Oh and didn’t I have theories for why I was moody.

It’s the hormones, it’s that time of the month (even if I was far from it), am just feeling down, I’m hungry, I need a quick nap, it’s a headache, it’s the heat. Looking back I have realized that what I never accepted was the fact that it was just me. I was moody.

I’m trying to adopt the lifestyle of jovial people. I’m still not sure how, but again I have new theories that are helping me boost the new attitude :p

  • Smile, it takes away the tension somehow. Don’t give in to the inner laziness and accept it. Laziness eventually makes us feel sluggish.
  • Exercise: it makes you feel so active and energetic and takes care of the sluggish feeling. I have taken to walking for at least an hour a day, and the difference is noticeable. Furthermore you cut down on those extra calories 😉 If I go for days without exercise, I easily get cranky and temperamental.
  • Look for the silver lining: my small sister is an inspiration in this aspect. She amuses me. I have learnt how foolish I am and have been by the way I easily over-react to small things. She totally laughs at me, doesn’t even hide it till I feel extremely stupid and I realize I shouldn’t sweat the small stuff. I remember this one time I got so annoyed because it started raining. I was thinking now what? Endless jam, terrible roads, mud, wet, hiking of fare prices, limited public transport, everything that I could think of. People in Nairobi, you know what I am talking about. My sis just laughed at me and asked me…”So what can you do about it? Either way you’re still going to have all that, might as well enjoy the cooling effect its bringing and resting along the way in traffic.” I know I still have a long way to go in this area but I am totally loving it and trying to find that silver lining.
  • Outdoor activities: I always have this adrenaline rush, I enjoy and absolutely love experiencing it. Running, being carefree (always a kid at heart), discovering places, indulging in physical activity such as hiking, swimming etc.

What about you? Have you thought of what makes you happy? Try making them a part of your routine.


smily crayzeeoptimist 🙂

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I’m Sorry For My Generation

couldn’t have put it any better.
i’d say here in Kenya were heading in that direction if not already there

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